2:50 p.m. - 2010-12-08
Africaaaaa xx
I'm going to Africa!!! Summer 2011!!! Life long dream is going to come true... I'll get to see big car <3 Elephants... The meserani reptile park! How cool will that be... Three weeks, like 800 quid! Cheered me up seeing as I'm being so stupidly morbid lately.. I just want to move on with my life now and yet lately I've been caught up in my memories, it's affected my other two relationships and I don't want it to affect a third, I need closure man, how do I get it? I've been talking about it with my best mate so he's been a dick and sent a message... Not gunna help when only one party still needs closure.. This is the best vent of my feelings, I don't even know what they are... Think if I could just see you one last time then it would make it easier, closed booked then.
Doing my first set of exams at uni this week... So good getting them over with, but so difficult man! Its stupidly cold aswell :( Need to revise biochemistry soon.... Gunna be so ridiculously difficult :( Then I have a pyscho-social exam in the afternoon, an absolutely pathetic it subject, pain can lead to depression, true or false... Gee I just don't know ''/ My life is so good... I'm at uni, I can drive, even though my car is broken at the minute... I have got so much better at riding and respected by my old boss, can probably ride whenever I go back... Have great mates, yet every night I sit in bored, meant to be studying... What's wrong with me... Why do I feel so miserable when I don't have anything to focus on?
xxx
